The Family

When I started this journal I had intended to keep my family out of it, keep it strictly personal with no mention of the kids or the hubby but it isn't that easy so I've decided to break that rule. I am 24 and I have 2 children. My eldest is a girl. She's 8 and in grade 3. She and I almost never see eye to eye and our relationship is strained at the best of times. I hope that time and growing up will work out these issues eventually but it can be hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. My son is 3 1/2 and is the exact opposite of my daughter. He cares when she doesn't, listens when she won't, and I bet you can imagine how much more of a strain is put on our relationship because of this. I'm sure she feels that he is favored over her because my son and I are on the same page more often than not. My daughter, however, seems to be in a different book entirely.Both of my children have their good and bad qualities and I can't wait to see the people they become.The other half and I live common-law and have been together 5 years now. He wants to get married and I don't. It's not really fear of commitment but more a fear of making the wrong choice. We all know the divorce rates and I don't want to become a statistic. We met when I was almost 19 and he was 36. I've never had issues with age differences and still don't but I feel that over the years I've grown into a person that doesn't quite mesh with who he is, at times, and it can cause problems. I guess that I worry that I may reach a point where I feel we are too different and that the differences will no longer compliment each other but complicate.Well, there you have it. I've reread this entry a few times and it sounds a little gloomy. That wasn't the intent. It probably has to do with PMS more than anything else, lol. I'm sure I'll have more family oriented entries that won't sound so blah but I guess it's the mood I'm in. No more entries until the blahs are gone.